Older and Wiser…Free to be me!!!

Happy New Month Friends! You already know from my last post that it is my birthday today and thanks for all the advanced birthday wishes in your comments.

Remember how I was talking about my anticipation of this day in my last post? I was excitedly looking forward to it for the most part but there was also a looming sense of anxiety. You see, I turned 30 today and there is a lot to be grateful and excited about. When I was younger, seeing people celebrate their 30th birthday seems like such a huge deal! Like a big milestone that is supposed to be marked with a long list of achievements; a sort of benchmark if you like. As if an impressive list of achievements is the whole reason for celebrating. It’s not surprising then that as this day approached, I started making a mental list of my “achievements”. I was a bit disappointed and sad when I recounted the dreams that are currently unfulfilled or has been abandoned for some reasons.

A friend asked how I was feeling to be turning 30 and I joked that I can’t believe I’m turning 30 and I still have so many unfulfilled dreams to which she responded “30 is not the benchmark”. She is absolutely right! There is no set benchmark, my dreams are simply that…mine. Truth be told, there was never a set benchmark, besides my entire life has changed so many times and so has my dreams that it doesn’t make sense to follow some convention about what is expected at a certain age or what not. I have had so many pleasant and not so pleasant surprises and experienced things that have changed me in ways I never even imagined. The only sure thing is that I always make it through somehow – older and wiser!

I woke up this morning expecting to feel a certain way but of course I didn’t, it is just any other day. Except the excitement of celebrating my birthday and being grateful to God for yet another year. Consequently, out goes the lists…both successes and failures because my life is literally just beginning and whatever I choose to do with it going forward is all that matters! Besides, I have a whole lot of great and small things to celebrate at this time. Most importantly is the breath in me which means I can live to fight another day. I have family and friends whom I love and who loves me in return, I am grateful for the ups and downs that have made me who I am today and for the simple things in life that makes me smile 🙂

I may not be where I’ve always imagined or maybe I am but the destination has changed and I don’t recognize it. Anyway, I can honestly say I have come a long way from where I used to be and growing is a part of the process of life – an achievement worth celebrating.

This Francesca Battistelli song is one of my favorite songs and the lyrics sums up how I feel mostly:

“Free To Be Me”

1. At twenty years of age
I’m still looking for a dream
A war’s already waged
For my destiny
But you’ve already won the battle
And you’ve got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

Chorus:

‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy
But on your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me

2. When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right
And I’d make it here somehow
But things don’t always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

Chorus:

3. Sometimes I believe
That I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I’ve got nothing good to bring
But you look at my heart and you tell me
That I’ve got all you seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

Chorus:

I did say my life has been filled with pleasant surprises and one of them was discovering Quilting and falling so in love with it. Now I can hardly imagine my life without it in one capacity or the other. Hence, I am grateful for quilting and it has surely helped me through some of my down times and brought me in contact with wonderful people I’d never have known otherwise. I celebrate you my quilty friends…thanks for being a part of my journey and growth!

I wish you the very best in this special month.

Sola 🙂

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20 thoughts on “Older and Wiser…Free to be me!!!

  1. Happy Birthday, Alice! Nice to meet you from Canada! I am on the new bloggers group with you! I am sure we will see lots of each other for the next few weeks! Hope you learn lots!

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Hi Tara, thank you very much! Yes we will see more of each other for sure ? Nice to meet you and I’m so looking forward to learning a lot.

  2. Happy Birthday to you. Enjoy it and celebrate you. I look at every day as a gift and do my best to enjoy each and every one of the… no matter what the number. Each year that I celebrate I know that I have learned new things, grown stronger and more confident and gained more wisdom.

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you Mary. Indeed every day is a gift to be celebrated and enjoyed ?

  3. Happily Birthday! Keep spreading your joy!

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you Stephanie…Happy new month ?

  4. It’s good to pass this marker, especially with the understanding that it is, in most ways, just another day. There isn’t a deadline on accomplishments or learning, or in growing in grace and how we treat others. We just need to do the best we can, all the time. Some days we won’t do well at all. In fact, some years are like that. But that’s okay. Patience with ourselves and our circumstances ultimately brings things around. Now you know. Older and wiser. <3

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you for the wise word Melanie! I’m trying to learn patience and just enjoying the growth. You’ve summed it up nicely…there isn’t a deadline on accomplishments…I just need to do the best I can all the time!

  5. Tolu Balogun

    I didn’t even know you were turning 30 today, maybe I’d have disturbed you at 12:00am lol. That’s a big one and I truly celebrate you. I woke up this morning wondering how best to celebrate you, but calls and ‘waka waka’ here and there ‘nor let me c road’ lol. Happy Birthday Ms. Sola… While it’s easy to look at the unachieved so far, you’ve actually achieved a whole lot. I look at you and I see a complete success in almost all areas. You are an inspiration to many, and I tell you… I have been inspired by you (I am not flattering you). So, today as always, I want to tell you that I love you from the depth of my heart (and I mean every word of it) and truly wish you many more prosperous years ahead..

    30 looks very good on you.

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Awww thank you for the kind words Tolu! God bless you. I’m glad you feel inspired by me ?

  6. Happy Birthday, and thanks for sharing your reflections. Celebrate life in all its stages!

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you Marla, I certainly will ?

  7. Well, Happy Birthday! This was a wonderful post and I am happy you are feeling free to be yourself. I too experienced this as I got older and it is an amazing (and freeing feeling)! I think starting each day filled with gratitude and acceptance of yourself is the path to a fulfilling life 🙂

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you so much Tierney! Yes gratitude is very important. It is so much easier to see everything that’s going wrong instead of basking in the glory of what’s actually going right no matter how small.

  8. Happy Birthday Sola, may you enjoy YOUR day and fill it with happiness. You are a mere babe in the world of ages. I still can’t figure out how I got to be so old (69 this past January).

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Hahahaha I really am a mere Babe! Thanks a lot Jennifer. I wish you good luck with the new month.

  9. Catherine

    Happy Birthday, Beautiful woman!

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Thank you Catherine.

  10. Happy, happy, happy birthday! You have a great attitude going, so enjoy your day and celebrate. Love the song, by the way! So glad you found quilting, and I found your blog 🙂

    • alicesamuelsquiltco

      Yayyy thanks a lot Wendy! I’m glad we found each other and that song speaks to me every time! Have a great month ahead ?

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